Art is Life

Hello my kittens~~

Since it's 1 am here and I'm too hyper to sleep

But still not ready to post product reviews just yet

I decided to do a post about art

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I might be a weird combination considering I'm studying to be a scientist 

but still love art in all its forms and shapes

I've always been able to draw

and for some reason when I draw no matter how angry, sad, or upset I am

it all washes away

Art is my sanctuary

Art makes me feel happy and safe

Where I don't need to be anything but me and still feel the best I can ever be

I don't think anything made me feel as centred and in control as Art let me be

Art is a part of me and I am a part of Art.

My journey with art as I said started since I was a kid, I did have an off time around the 

6th grade due to the lack of encouragement and the constant negative feedback

and let me tell you

I never felt so lost and so not in order as I did then

after the 6th grade I went back to art

and it felt so good

Because I was able to express myself again

I was able to be me

I never really got much encouragement from my family

when I was a kid yes they did encourage me

but that stopped when I hit high school

it even came to points where they said to me a few times

"How long do you plan on continuing that silly drawing"

or

"Stop wasting your time and do something useful"

or 

"It's just a drawing why are you making such a big deal of it"

I never stopped though

I never listened to them

because what do they know?

They never experienced this level of ascendant in their minds

nor did the experience the liberating feeling of finishing a drawing

or even drawing to begin with

I don't know how to describe it

I don't think I can

Through good and bad Art has been here

Allowing me to be myself without any prejudice

without any hate

making me feel the best about myself even in my darkest times

even in my loneliest times

Art always made me feel happy 

the feeling is just unexplainable 

it's pure magic

that is Art at it's simplest explanation

It's pure and magical 

So if Anything I am happy and blessed to be an artist

to be able to express myself this way

I might not be the best

or might not be even considered good to many

but I don't care

Because I refuse to leave this entrancing world

just so I can do what people think is appropriate 

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Okay that's it for this post~~

I just wanted to share how Art affects me

and how important it is to me~

and by the way all these drawing are done by me

Please don't give up on your Art

for there is Nothing

that will make you feel as it does <3

Thanx for reading and stay tuned for the next post

Love and Kisses to all~~ <3

Acne, There is Hope

Hello my kittens~~~

So this post was a bit hard for me to decide to do

but since I know so many suffer from acne or acne scars

I thought hey what the hell

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So as you all know I have always struggled with acne and acne scars

I still fight with the scars till now,

but it's now getting better

sadly I don't have pictures of when my acne was most active 

cause back then I hated myself and my skin soo bad

because it was so ugly

even though I did everything I could to make it go away

but nothing worked

Last year a bit before I turned 19 I had enough, 

I went to a different dermatologist who finally prescribed Decutan for me

which cleared up my skin nicely

so no more acne cause it's dead~~

I still get the occasional zit here and there

but that's nothing a bit of Tea Tree oil can't fix

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After so much work with clarifying products and toners and cleansers

I finally got to my goal skin

I still have a bit of redness and pores

but I can work with that

for that can be dealt with also

No filter or photshop used for these pics

nor makeup~~~

I'm so happy and tearing up right now because 

I remember once I was out with my family to the avenues 

and a guy made a very mean comment about my acne saying

"look at her pimple! it's so huge!! why can't she wash her face or something"

I still remember it to this day cause it hurt me so much

but now I can tell him to shove down his throat

cause not only did I finally get my skin cleared up

but  now I'm not as self concious 

this journey only made me stronger!!

So to everyone out there who is suffering from acne

I tell you there is hope,

it will get better if you take care of it

and that you are not alone 

Nor are you ugly

you're beautiful no matter what people say

so that's it for this post~

Hope you liked it

cause it's very personal and it was hard

Thanx for reading and stay tuned for the next post~

Love and kisses to all~~ <3